This is my first writing after months. Months!

Many things happened. Too many and too much that I find it hard to share. Maybe this is what people feel when they’re really down. So low that you cannot see the surface. So dark that you’re not sure how long you can endure. How to get back then?

I’m now reaching the surface and starting to see some light. I don’t know how I could make my way back, but it was certainly not without efforts, losing faith, and grief. I almost didn’t believe in anything but I tried to keep believing that He’s there protecting me. It’s hard to believe, but I chose to believe for I had nothing left. Then I learned that even in my worse time, it was actually the best situation I could be during circumstances. I can say this now because I was there.

However, the grief lasts. My beloved ones are still down there and I just don’t know how to help… Wish it would be as simple as bring them up together with me. Yet, it’s life that we’re talking about. And life deals well with time. I only can pray that their time to emerge will come soon before it’s too late.

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